… for my money…
… but I only have a finite amount of money.
//… I have an infinite amount of love though ?
… for my money…
… but I only have a finite amount of money.
//… I have an infinite amount of love though ?
Dear Diary,
I write here when I am feeling rather glum or particularly vulnerable… There are so many people out there that I feel reach out to me. There is actually one person I am thinking of. He writes so much that I cannot keep up. Then I notice that I cannot tend to him. Or that I feel I am exhausted.
It is like the love of a mother to a child. What happens if throughout life you meet so many children that want you to be their mother?
I know it is the turning point. That I am someone who has not noticed until now. Now I notice but I feel so tired. I feel so exhausted. It is as if a child has come up to me and has drawn a beautiful picture but I do not have the energy to reward them with my praise.
I feel as if I am drifting off into a sleep. A world apart from them. A world where I just watch and see all that they do, but that I cannot comment. It is so hard and difficult to comment. To congratulate. It is like lifting my limbs which are all heavy because I am drugged up.
It could be that I am tired. But I listen more and more now. I hear so many children in the world wanting my praise. I so want to praise them and tell them how good their achievements are.
It is not enough that they know this in my heart. They have to hear it from me. I need to respond but I feel so heavy and laden.
Perhaps, tomorrow is a brighter day. I am perhaps tired from the week’s work. I did respond. I responded to one child. I thought that was enough. That that was all I needed to do. However, now I see the so many other children out there that want me to respond to them.
I wish to respond to all but I haven’t the energy. The answer is to compose many short sweet touching responses. These responses are just as good as long time-consumed ones. The children are just happy with a smile from their mother – they need not anything more.
Yeah but that’s like me telling you that Moomintrolls exist and you saying that you can’t dispute that because you cannot disprove that they don’t exist.
… “Oh, I hate you…”
… see you in the future, moonshine pigs ^_^
We are the… moonshine pigs… (kind of like the Clangers).
You’re doing it because you fancy me… if I was fat, bald & ugly you wouldn’t be helping me at all…
You want to know why?
You can’t handle the why!
Can Stephen Wiltshire draw in 2D :- ?
… The problem with holding off is that it builds up a backlog and then I find that I try to restrict myself because I don’t want to type up so many scribblings in one go…
… I can’t read through your stuff… The reason is that it won’t do you justice… I want to be honest with you… It’s not you… It is me… I am selfish and I only skim your stuff for references that you may have written that I could use as a way to get you to talk about uncomfortable things.
It’s my job… I make you feel small and embarrassed. Then I change the subject onto my relationship between you and me.